The Reason We Became Young Parents

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As much as it may surprise most of you, our daughter wasn't an accident. Why would anyone plan to have a kid this early in life might you ask? Well if you really asked me I would smile and politely tell you that it's none of your business why? Mostly because I've had to deal with the ugly looks & condolence smiles since I was pregnant & I'm pretty tired of that. 



When I got my first lady exam I found out I had PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome) which comes with the difficulty of ever getting pregnant. The thought made Jeff & I uneasy because we knew we wanted kids, just not when. We figured the best chance we had was young when my body was the most fertile, and if it didn't work out in a couple of years we would seek other routes. If it was meant to be it would happen, we couldn't really force it. For almost a year we tried and tried with no luck. No one really tells you the toll it takes on you mentally when you think you're pregnant & the test comes back negative. My battle of not being 'women enough' started here and had a lot to do with my post-partum depression.



When we did find out that it had finally happened, after initially thinking I had the flu because of my terrible morning sickness, it was like having a weight lifted off my shoulders. I loved being pregnant up until the last month (haha) I felt so beautiful and like I glowed. I kind of miss it but right now I just want to enjoy Camila & cherish our journey together. It took so much to make her, I think we deserve some space to be a little family. This is also the nicest way I can ask everyone to stop asking me if and when I think I want another one... 



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