52 Week Blogger Challenge: Week 5, Why Did I Start Blogging?

I found Sarah Emily Blogs through a Facebook group and happened to stumble across this marvelous 52 Week Blogger Challenge! It's exactly what I was looking for, something that helps me open up more to you guys, and gives me a for sure post every week! Now I don't have the best track record with finishing challenges but I'm going to give this one a go because I'm pretty excited about all of the topics that I'm seeing. Although I'm a little late to the party I'm so glad I found it when I did!

When I started blogging I didn't have this business state of mind, I didn't know you could make money off of writing, I didn't even know there was a whole community out there that had already established themselves and did this as a full time thing! 

I started because of my traumatic birthing experience, an experience that still makes me tear up to this day. (you can read it here.) After all of those regrets I didn't feel as close to Camila as I wanted to, I felt like I missed that "Golden Hour" of bonding time that I would have gotten with her if I would have had her naturally.

My entire pregnancy I was so dead set on breastfeeding and doing things naturally and listening to my body, but none of it went according to what I had in my head. I let the Dr pressure me into things I didn't want to do, and in the end I was left with a sense of emptiness that I felt no one would ever understand. 

I kept my feelings to myself, bottled up, and refused to accept the way things had gone, blogging was my escape from Post-Postpartum Depression. It was a way out of the hole I felt myself dig up. I knew if I kept everything in I could never be the mom I wanted to be for my baby.

With everyone telling you that there's no way you had to have a C-section, you just took the easy way out. There's no excuse your body was designed to that. I knew myself that I did what I had to do to save my life and the babies life and wanting to have the baby naturally ended up keeping me away from me for 2 days because we had both gotten an infection. I let blogging be my outlet and when I found out I wasn't the only mommy that has had an experience like this it made me feel so much better. It helped me become such a better mom, and helped me to let go of all of those negative thoughts and move on with my life! 

52 Week Blogger Challenge